Me, Myself n Heah....

New House

2009-12-20T11:43:00.001+08:00

Cool! Haha...waiting for the time to upload my house floor plan...

Here it goes

Recollection

2009-11-11T22:09:00.002+08:00

I was just reading through my blog posts. The last paragraph of the last entry state that the death of the post shall be my collection. Yes. It was indeed so. I just read through some of the posts which I had made. Life was like a roller coaster. But fortunately, the ride was not really that bad.

I remembered when NTU ODAC friends celebrated my birthday @ NTU Sakae Sushi. I was surprised to see PQ and I knew tt my friends were waiting and to surprise me. Haha...this year the same thing happened. I saw Weiqin @ the toilet. Haha...I really do not know how come will end up seeing him. Seeing him was really a surprise and once again, I thought it was only me. Haha....

Death

2009-03-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

12th March 2009 Thursday

I was driving back home after having a full day meeting. Was totally shacked and the drive back home was really long. My mum called when I was driving along Jln Bukit Merah and she asked me what time will I reach back home. I told her soon. When I reached back home, this was what my mum told me that my godfather passed away on Tuesday night. I was shocked and I was quiet during my dinner. Both my dad n mom went to attend the wake. I felt guilty because I only got to know it today....

As I was washing dishes, the fear came back... a fear that I am really fearful...I just could not help thinking that my parents are getting older...when I be able to take the truth when my parents are no longer on Earth? I felt the loneliness - the same way my mum must have felt everyday, missing her parents (both passed away quite some time). Did she miss them? I didn't even dare to ask such a question...the thoughts of this day when my parents leave me has created an impounding fear, something that just can't erase out of my mind...I'm trying to do well in my career so that my parents do not have to work so hard...but I just can't fight against...one night, my soul kept shouting, "Please give me more time! Really need it! Please please". Yet, time just stood still without any emotion....I'm really fearful....

This will be the last post for the blog. I won't be deleting it because it can help me to refesh my memories during the years. Just find that blogging has been a way for me to vent out my unhappiness which I do not like it.

Whirlpools of thoughts n thoughts! Just dun know where to start....

2008-11-21T13:52:00.006+08:00

In a few more days, I shall begin my humble journey of "despicable, deceiving, promising and sweet working life"!!!!

I was reading through PQ's, Joo's n Peishan's blogs...just came out with a lot of thoughts!

PQ->I just remembered that she's going for Taiwan...wee...Taiwan is fun n I hope that she will enjoy the freezing coldness and the beautiful side of Taiwan especially HuaLian county. My best trip is the Taroko National Park. The landscape was totally mesmerising! Behold the true beauty of Mother Nature! I simply love it! Very happy that PQ is on flying. She had wanted to go for a fly when she had BGR problem. I can recalled when she cried near...erm...ok...shall put a full stop to it. Very very very very happy for her....

JooJoo->The newest entry is: Who is Shun Zhang. To be truthful, I do not deeply understand what's his real thoughts n character. Always feel that the friendship is always stay constant. Everytime I think of him, how I feel guilty. Guilty in the sense of how I never put the effort in catching up with friends. I'm veryv very passive, always wanting ppl to invite me....haha...so lagger! And because of this, I am starting to plan to meet JooJoo alone n him ONLY when my work starts on the 24th Nov.(Not sure whether he's ok with it). He will always remind the importance of friendship. There is something that I am happy for him is that his smile, his scarastic but friendly remarks, his sudden outburst of laughter, his gossips, his many many friends. It's this happiness for him to SALUTE him!!!! Haha...JooJoo GANBAttE!

Peishan->I just read her blog n she mentioned that I'm like leaving in another dimension, the fourth dimension, time. I have not met her since after graduation. Really want to keep this friendship because it is never easy to build on it or to maintain it. Think she must be having lots of work to do! Haha..when is she going to be married...haha...DON'T WORRY....I will be calling upon YOU for DATING!!!! Haha...Alvin is going to punch me, right? Haha...

Oct, Nov & Dec 2008->These 3 months are bad. Economic downturn. I'm fearful that OCBC will retrench my gf because they have already the list of whom they want to retrench. The fear retrenchment sinks into my mind. Retrenchment means no income...oh dear...this is bad. I believed some companies are taking their time and find the best time to retrench their workers. It's like living in fear....This is really a karma for us the human beings in pushing too much gain in material wealth. The economy has taken its toll. Light of optimisim is shining like a future distant star. We, humans, must continue to carry the burning tourch of human resilience!

Birthday Celebration @ NTU

2008-11-15T09:15:00.003+08:00

Hmm...Let me think of how I shall start to write.......

Ok...Joo smsed n asked me that he wanted to have dinner with me ONLY n wanted to consult on sth on the 14th Nov. So I was wondering why of all places but in NTU n somemore it's only me n him. It feels weird cos he usually dun do it. As for the consultation, I really think of me of no help to him to consult. As the date was close to my birthday, I did expect that he wanted to celebrate my birthday. So I decided to say ok. My initial thoughts were that the rest of my ODAC friends would not be celebrating for my birthday becos most of them are working or they are already preparing for their exams. So it is practically fine....(sob sob! LAter-year world arrivers are like tt).

So when I met Joo @ the bus stop n we were walking towards Sakae Sushi, I saw PQ. So my mind went like this: So PQ is here->the gang is here also! Haha...I was right! N Joo was complaining how come dun have the atmosphere of surprise! Haha...I felt that too! It wasn't me that ODAC ppl were celebrating. Esther was one of them. I remembered that her birthday was close to mine as I was surfing the facebook website. Haha...did not know my SP's birthday was close to mine. So as usual, ODAC ppl started to cheer on as, " La Ji(aka kiss)......" Haha! Both of us felt awkward. It is this type of atmosphere that brings on the fun and entertainment otherwise it will be booorrrinnnggg. The dinner was expensive as each had to pay abt $26 per pax which is expensive. After the dinner, Zhenhan drove Yali, PQ, Grace, Mark n I to Essential Brew @ Holland V. Had drinks, finger foods, talk n gossips. As usual, both Zhenhan n I were relatively quiet when compared to the rest. Zhenhan n PQ were starting to fall asleep n I could see Grace kept on talking, her burst of energy is never going to fail....I managed to keep up with the ODAC gossips through Grace so that I dun feel left out.

When I went back home, did not bathe n went to change n laid on my bed. I was thinking of myself as a person of the age 26, was wondering what are my achievements, my close friends, my disappointments. I started to recall what my CO said during the ORD function. This is what he adviced, "When you all start to find work or study, you will find that the contentment of being simple isn't really simple." I sank into deep thoughts...it is quite true for me. I will always want the best of myself n will always like to compare with rest of the ppl. It helped me to be a more competitive person but also putting myself into isolation (less interaction, not knowing when friends' comments are joke or serious....blah blah). Felt disappointed abt it. I understand that I take things seriously as it's my character so I really felt pitiful for those who are my friends. "Wha...Gary is so serious....no laughter...dun know how to chat....blah blah"-issue, economic bad patch, environmental pollution. All this came to a conclusion, if I had the choice to be born in this world, I would say NO!

Just wanted to whine n bitched abt my life. Cos I always feel gd after writing on the blog. It has become my medium of venting. Good blog!

All in all, I want to thank Joo Joo for making up the story, PQ, Yali, Denis, Mark, Grace, Zhenhan, Chee Keong (speaking of him, he's the most shocking person to see @ NTU celebrating my birthday), Munir, Untung and Eugene Tay. Thank you all! You all are the only guys who celebrate my birthday. I almost cried when you all peeps celebrated my birthday during the 11th main committee. Thank you...thank you... *weep weep*

Prawn Fishing

2008-11-09T19:31:00.002+08:00

The session was totally horrible because it was really a mental torture as I did not fish any prawns. The four of us just caught two prawns and it was so miserable. Of course such failure was attributed to the fact that the bait that the operator was providing was LOUSY! I can guarantee plus chop on this fact. Feeling so down and emo while I'm on my way back home...Next time I must but good bait! If not, do not ever go!

2008-11-04T16:58:00.001+08:00

I'm not strong! :(

Auto playing of Music

2008-11-01T12:36:00.000+08:00

How to do it on the blog...Argh.....tough setting!!!! :(

Soccer!

2008-11-01T12:31:00.002+08:00

I enjoyed myself last night soccer. It has been a long time tt I sweat so much without feeling any form of tireness in my leg. Had Eugene's special car ops! High ops that requires ODAC commandoes!

2008-10-28T12:15:00.002+08:00

He's fought and he's fallen
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
A sinister romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see

Teachin' torches to burn bright
She's hanging on the cheek of night
A snowy dove trooping with crows
He never saw true beauty till tonight

CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love

He's fought and he's fallen
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
A glittery romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see

His bounty's boundless like the sea
His love is endless, just as deep
The more he gives the more he has
`Cause both of them are truly infinite

CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love

That's Shakespeare in love

A sinister romantic
He's on his knees before he's on his feet

CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love
That's Shakespeare in love
That's Shakespeare in love

2008-10-14T20:06:00.001+08:00

池塘邊的榕樹上　知了在聲聲叫著夏天操場邊的鞦韆上　只有蝴蝶停在上面黑板上老師的粉筆　還在拼命嘰嘰喳喳寫個不停等待著下課　等待著放學　等待遊戲的童年福利社裏面什麼都有　就是口袋裏沒有半毛錢諸葛四郎和魔鬼黨　到底誰搶到那支寶劍隔壁班的那個女孩　怎麼還沒經過我的窗前嘴裏的零食　手裏的漫畫　心裏初戀的童年沒有人知道為什麼　太陽總下到山的那一邊沒有人能夠告訴我　山裏面有沒有住著神仙多少的日子裏　總是一個人面對著天空發呆就這麼好奇　就這麼幻想　這麼孤單的童年總是要等到睡覺前　才知道功課只作了一點點總是要等到考試以後　才知道該唸的書都沒有唸一寸光陰一寸金　老師說過寸金難買寸光陰一天又一天　一年又一年　迷迷糊糊的童年一天又一天　一年又一年　盼望長大的童年

2008-09-23T20:54:00.002+08:00

Have not posted anything yet....Too lazy to post...

What a miss!

2008-09-11T19:46:00.002+08:00

I MISS ODAC FAMILY DAY THIS COMING SAT! Sob sob! My girl girl went overseas trip by her company. Me lonely in the camp! Going to be emo...aiyah...try to be less emo!

Continuation from last entry

2008-09-08T21:28:00.002+08:00

Just caught a sneeze....who's MISSING ME??? Haha...so thick-skinned. Not too long I will be owning a flat at Dover Crescent...Wee...wee...I must say that I'm so fortunate to have my girlfriend to fork out her entire CPF account which amounts to about $20K. It is not a small sum of money...Feel so blissful to have her! Muhaha...Thank you darling! Muack! ^_^

2008-09-06T10:13:00.006+08:00

I do not know what to start with but these are the entries which I've written down on a small note book during camp.
260808 Tues:
I just get to know that the duty manning for me, just only me, has been changed. I'm going to be transferred from Charlie to Alpha Platoon with effective on 280808 Thurs. I felt that it was OK for me to pull me back to Alpha platoon as I was just attached to Charlie for a short while only. The upper management, my PC, should have informed me earlier the week before and not at the last minute. Always like to do things @ the very last minute. Well, let's not talk about such things as it dampens my spirit.
Anyway, Perishan's friend, Rui Ping, an outstanding girl of her own. She has totally a class of her own yet she's not arrogant. She's pretty and she sees things positively and she can manage well in her work, boyfriend and family. I would need to learn and inculcate some of her characters into me. This is the way to success...Perhaps not, it is the road to become a better and stronger person.
Went for AHM. Had two thoughts. I felt both good and bad with my own race timing and Shun Zhang respectively. Good feeling was that I was able to endure the last 6 km of the run which I'm proud of myself. It was not easy as I ate one banana and drank water at the last station. Water+banana=bloated! Haha...totally can't run. Got to walk until the start of the Marina Barage. It was this last 6 km that I told myself that I must not stop at all. Yes, mind over body...sounds so army. Now for the troubled feeling was that I assumed that Shun Zhang was running with Untung with the info provided from Yali. But it's not entirely Yali's fault. So I dun blame her. It's me who carried the strong assumption that both of them were running together. I should have ran with Shun Zhang. Though I admit I run slower than him, a short period of running together is better than not at all. Even if I could not pace up with him, there will still be moments of companionship. I must get rid of assuming things and events. It can turn out to be nasty if the assumption is too strong.
That's all for the 260808 entry.

270808 Wed
Tried to sleep as I've duty @ 2200 hrs till the next day 0200 hrs. But I just can't. I wasn't able to sleep because I found what I really want to do for my career. I wanted to be a pilot, it does not have to be a fighter jet pilot so long as I'm not under the Rotary Wing. That is the reason why in the earlier post I'd put pilot as my dream and engineer as a practical job. I wanted to stick onto my DSTA engineer because it is stable and this will help me plan my financial budget which is very important. I've to clear tuition fee loan, computer loan. I don't feel any financial burden at all becuase it is part and parcel of being a average Singaporean. Just wondered why it took me so long just to find out what I really want. Isn't it a bit sad? I've still yet to complete...so stay tuned for the next update...love you everybody! Muack! Muack Muack! ^_^

Irritating phone call

2008-08-25T11:28:00.003+08:00

This tour agency called me twice. The 1st call was on Sat night and I turned them down. The 2nd call was 5 minutes ago. FUcking irritating. I've told them sternly that I do not want the card in the 1st call n yet they called again. Pissed me off!

AHM

2008-08-24T17:06:00.001+08:00

A gd run....Love it! Think it was not too bad. Joo joo wants to be pilot....all the way

Dream vs Practicality

2008-08-11T11:52:00.000+08:00

Dream: Pilot :-)
Practicality: Engineer :-

Hmmm...

2008-08-01T20:51:00.002+08:00

Today just booked out of the camp. The duty PC, Alpha platoon, 2LT Vincent Lee, called for a meeting for the 14th mono and the 13th mono to thrash out the differences between the two cohorts. I think he took quite a neutral stand as in he spoke that he's angry with both cohorts. He has his own perspectives and he feels that both cohorts are right to blame. As for the readers, you may be thinking of what am I talking right? It is abt the manning hours. The 14th mono for the past one month has been doing more duty hours. Being a 9th mono senior, I felt that it was ok for the 14th mono ppl to do more a bit because I agree on conditioning. But I do not agree that the 14th mono should do entirely 12 hr standing without resting. A 12 hr standing is totally too much. Even for the Istana guards in their number 1 uniform dun even stand for 12 hrs, let alone carrying the weapon. Being a 9th mono senior, I felt that there was no sense of family established in the squadron. Sometimes, it takes a few handful to be less initiative and this will destroy all the hardwork.

For the 13th mono, I wished you all the best in whatever you do. I just wished that both cohorts will have more interaction. Tt's all. Tt is the best way to understand each other.

Air Force Musuem

2008-07-29T17:48:00.002+08:00

Today went to Air Force Musuem and as usual me being the only old guy. I went alone from point A to point B. All the juniors have some form of respect but when we talk, tt's really an age gap...Hmm...I wonder it is me or is it other factors. I have to admit I'm those type of quiet guys! Not emoing at this point in time...haha...

The trip was an eye-opener not because I'm in the Air Force but rather because of history. I basically love history...Perhaps tt was the reason y I was able to get an A for my history. Sometimes, history will allow us to see things in different perspectives.

To Weisi, congrats for being the next president. I'm glad tt u have taken this position. Sometimes the position is quite lonely at times, so do be prepared!

Resumption of NS

2008-07-20T10:57:00.002+08:00

Actually wanted to write different entries ever since I resume my NS liability. But I'm too lazy to write everything down. Therefore, I will make it as short as possible.

When I report back to TAB on the 1st July, I was not cleared to enter n I was shocked becos I emailed the mindef hr but my unit S1 never receive. I was thinking how come the admin side is not effective. I was only cleared by S3 shortly. I also did expect that the S1 was still a lady but it turned out to be a guy. No wonder!!!! Trust me...guys are really sucky at admin unless...ermz...I'm lousy at admin too. I expected my roles and the collection of my 11B to be ready but it wasn't. Felt lost for the 1st 3 days because of the fact that I was "pushed" from one platoon to another platoon. CO and S3 had different management compared when I was in 9th mono. Things have changed alot in TAB especially for the management level. Sadly to say that some changes were good but others were bad, in my perspective. We were not allowed to eat cook house because the base commander felt that we really waste food ration and hence he instructed that all our squadron personnel can only eat ration NOT at the cookhouse.

Soldiers serving NS at our squadron were of different age from me. Some of them like to do stupid stunts and I really feel that there's alot difference in maturity when I compare myself to them. Asking whether I've the honour and pride in serving my NS, I can say definitely NO. I did my duty based on my squadron instruction and did my duty for my FAMILY, GF n my FRIENDS. Everytime I book out, I always look forward to meeting my family, gf n friends. I always tell myself that I try my best to maximise the time with them. Never did I think of doing it for the country. Everything seems to stuck at the word, "management". Hmmm...as of now, I just do my duty as best as possible! My squadron really lacks of the feeling of a family and the atitude that ppl have in the squadron

Serving NS

2008-07-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

I've started to serve my NS as a RP in TAB. Well, things have changed alot n I felt weird doing shift side duty when I was supposed to be working at the admin side. Well, nothing can be done. To SZ and Yali, I can't attend your convocation. I'm so sorry because both dates are days when I have to GUARD the gates. Very very sorry abt it! Will be booking out less for the month of August to November...what a long time....

Blogging slagging

2008-06-09T17:24:00.002+08:00

hello everyone...my blog still has not been updated ever since then...but will be updating soon after my Taiwan Trip...take care! Enjoy what you guys love to do!

THINGS I WILL MISS HERE WHEN I GRADUATE

2008-04-11T19:19:00.005+08:00

Just had dinner with my bro n then in the canteen 11 was quite quiet. Around this time, there should be a lot of students staying back on Friday to study...but was quite quiet....quite a surprise!

My brain is compiling of what I will in NTU. I had a lot of things to write but really need time to sort it out....IT'S REALLY THE LAST HURDLE OF THE 2nd chapter in my life but the beginning of a new 3rd chapter...It's like CIRCLE OF LIFE...DEATH MEANS BIRTH! Whoa...so philisophy! Getting a bit emotional.....

Ok...I know what to write already because I just finished discussion with Ker Young for Computer Vision...Haha...just realised that he actually wore the singlet on the wrong side...but I was too tired to laugh...ya......just keep thinking about it.

I shall now blog on the emotional part as really a final year student:

I can guarantee plus chop that the ride as a year 4 student is pretty swinging because of my mood, studies and the future. When u read my past entries of my blog, you will understand why. After dinner with my bro, the canteen 11 was just too quiet as in even though got people but there really wasn't a lot of local students having meal , perhaps, it was too early cos I went to have dinner @ 6 cos most Singaporeans have their meals at around 7. So the feeling I got was like exams are coming to end. To me, once the exam is over, I've graduated from NTU provided I dun fail any subjects. I was just recalling all the past years when I stayed in hall since year 1 till now @ hall 10. I enjoyed running at night becos it is quiet n the air is definitely fresher compared to my house. The nice green scenary and the soothing sound of the cicada at night makes this place wonderful even though need to clean my hall regularly due to dust.

ODAC:

(1)FOOT'05-->It was a gd step for me as I took up the role as a Logistics Officer for FOOT'05. The committee had arguements because both SPOs were at loggerheads and it was not until Kelvin Kuah stepped in n took up the responsibility of SPO on top as being a President of ODAC. I just did my part in logisitics and I gave my support to my dear two log officers, Chee Keong n Alvin Tan. Both are smoking buddies n very easy to negotiate....hahaha...I enjoyed myself during FOOT'05 not because of the programme but rather seeing each member's real true face...whether they are passionate or whether are they the people who only talks-but-dun-do-much attitude??? In summary, human nature characterisitics.

(2)Main comm logistics-->Year 2 studies became a lot heavier and I must agree that at that point of time, my relationship with my gf was strained partly because of two reasons: (a)Lousy time management (b)Her career @ OCBC. Lousy management as in I did not cater time for her because holding the post in main comm log was quite heavy as weian was new to log n I got to teach him a bit on the log stuff and furthermore the core subjects were like 7 to 8 which is alot. This paved way to poor relationship which I felt that it was really the hit the bottom of the relationship. (b)-->I was not able to take her yelling n screaming whenever she called me because of work cos I see no point as in why should I get the yelling and screaming when I never did anything wrong in the 1st place. So I started not to like her and try not to talk to her...until the day when we sat down and really talked about it. She was still in the transition mode from graduation to working life n she at that point of time was trying to adpat the change. I felt it was reasonable n hence accepted the fact she wants me to listen and that's all even if there is no solution to propose on the spot. I really felt that year 2 was the really the turning point, as in to break up or not to break up.

(3)ODAC President-->Working with the 11th main managment was my pride, not because of my own effort, but the rest of the people inside the committee. They have really given their best n effort even though sometimes maybe slip shot, but it was ok. Pumpfest were ok except there was turmoil in the committee which was expected because it is a natural thing. ATC I would say that Grace and Chong Meng really really did their very very very best in making the event. I heard that Adidas wanted to sponsor ATC, which was WHOA!!!! For FOOT, there are a lot of indifferences between my brother and the committee members, overall, it was relatively unsmooth. I would say lots of moody nights especially for the seniors. I still can recall Zhenhan saying that FOOT'07 is the FOOT camp that destroys the bonding among the senior whereas FOOT'06 was the FOOT camp where the seniors bonded quite well...I was sad to hear it actually, to me, it was like a failure cos ODAC is all about FOOT, the people, YES, PEOPLe with the passion to constantly driving the outdoor adventure. Hence FOOT has to be successful! One thing I saw was the tears from my dear 11th main committee members, they were crying...I know the reason...I spoke to them with my heart and thank them for all the years of hardwork and dedication. I can remembered that they were commenting that the first time that I've delivered such a smooth speech as a president, I thought so too. I myself will not be able to take the whole thing. When everyone was gathering, including Yonghan, I can't remember whether he was in the human circle or not, my brother wasn't inside n I saw him sweeping the floor. I just felt the pain, he must have felt that pain as in FOOT'07 has to go through so much ups and down even though we humans are mentally prepared for it. Nevertheless, I still thank for my bro for his effort even though FOOT'07 has not gone well. Think it will leave a mark in my heart, definitely.

Being the president, I believed that I was not giving my best, I can see it and feel it especially during AGM. Felt quite useless and I regretted taking up the position as a president but nevertheless, I told myself that I must continue to live on. Experience comes at a heavy price. To my beloved 11th main committee members, thank you for your endearing support and tolerance! Thank you!

Year 4-->Closing of chapter 2 but an opening of chapter 3 of my life. after the exams, I will soon graduate from NTU. I will miss my hall life because it really gave me the freedom to do a lot of things. I can stay up late at night n study, can run at super late night cos at home, I will not be able to do so, I can surf internet even though it looks indirectly "free". The water pressure here is higher than my house so bathing also shiok shiok. Food is defintiely cheaper compared to outside. I just felt that I DID NOT STRETCH MY ENERGY N YOUTH especially in NTU. JUST FEEL SAD abt it. I just want to join all the activities but just then I dun feel comfortable I think just before I leave NTU, just want to know more people in my hall, especially the two girls n the guy cos they are also graduating soon n I have seen them for four years n yet I do not know their names, really a pity! So I tell myself that I was look forward to each new day n maximise my opportunities to do any activities.

One thing I really hate is that: when people know you but they just dun give a smile or a hi when they see me...just act as if I'm non-existence...it's really what the fuck...I get pissed off easily. To me, recognition of existence is important it really motivates and makes my day...

One thing I have found out that resolutions are pretty useless when u really dun adhere to it, really? I'm the example, supposedly to be quite fit but now like a uncle with tummy.

I feel deep down inside my heart that I do feel as a loner because of my characteristics. Sometimes I just dun know what to say to my friends n I always have this feeling that people will not find any enjoyment in me as in I'm a boring person, a person with no jokes, no partying to places like Zouk or blah blah. Or sometimes, people find uneasiness in talking to me, just like trying to finish his or her sentence so that he/she can continue their job. Am I such a boring person?

Chapter 3 of my life is really something to look foward cos got salary and can start to look to form a family. I will give my best before I lie down n sleep eternally in the coffin! Ya, that's a promise for myself! MYSELF!

To all year 4 folks: Strive for the best! Ganbatte!

黑夜过后

2008-03-27T01:01:00.003+08:00

黑夜过后-石康军曲:石康军词:李曈
我是说真的
你如果累了
别犹豫随时都能来找我
我不善言语
但愿意陪你
让你至少不孤单渡
过难眠的夜晚
不管夜多漫长
天终究会明亮
chorus:
黑夜过后第一道阳光是为了融化你心中的霜
闹过哭过当力气全耗光
发现你不过又爱了一场
黑夜过后另一个早上
是最后一次和她说晚安
你要相信你比想象勇敢
逃离夜的捆绑
奔向日出的方向

Lab experiment showcase

2008-03-19T16:21:00.002+08:00

I was expecting external company to come for the show however, they did not turn up...I think it's ok cos the hardware DAQ or would I say that there is a problem of overshooting when it's supposed to be 0V. So sian...raining day...hoping that it will be a hot day so that I can go n wash my clothes cos IT'S PILLING UP!

I read thru PQ's blog with regards to me about "New Age Man". Am I??? Haha...I dun know...JUST THAT I'M FOREVER SENSITIVE PERSON...tt's all I have to say for myself! It's coming to the end of the year alr....really dun feel like studying....why huh!? Just feel so damn restless...DAMN it!

Argh! Just do one step by a time...I'm waiting for NI's technician to reply me back........All I need is strength...tt's all....

GAnBAtTe for myself n the final year students!

Dinner with Shun Zhang only and Lunch with Peishan

2008-03-18T19:55:00.002+08:00

Whoa...Today I met Shun Zhang for dinner. Muhaha...When I saw him, whoa....I could see all the glitterign light and tone of his tanned muscle...muhaha...really damn handsome...really....it's was damn shuai! Really shuai ge! muhaha....Thank you Shun Zhang for dating me out for dinner...Really feel appreciate abt it and thanks for the care n concern. I was thinking while on my way back which was ur sentence: "myself". Ya, come to think of that, I really need to sit down n think abt what are the things I want for MYSELF! Thank you!

To Peishan: Thank you for the afternoon company for lunch even though I just could not help laughing at ur hands shivering when u tried to remove the skin of the BBQ duck meat by ur mouth! Come to think of tt...muhahaha...but thanks for the lunch! Muhaha....

STRONG

2008-03-18T00:55:00.001+08:00

I WILL BE STRONG!

things which I dun understand myself

2008-03-17T23:54:00.002+08:00

Today seems very very moody...I dun know why...just hate the things that I'm associated with. Hmm...this is for the 1st time that I'm reall revealing out on the blog which I have to confess to myself: my love for my gf is not as deep when I was wooing her back at my Jurong Institute days. I can feel it...the love for her as in my own feelings is not as strong as hers. I know that she loves me deep deep, which I can feel it deep down inside my heart! Whenever I go out with her, we are both happy and we sometimes can play with each other and sometimes not to say quarrel. All these moments are just things which I can accept. But the passion really has gone down for the coming 8 years! I dun see myself having the passion as compared to last time! Perhaps more distraction? more disappointment? I just blame myself for not finding the right path for myself! Ya...actually 8 years I'm really proud of myself that I can withstand so much of weathering and temption...even though I always have this thinking greener pasture is nicer than the older ones...true is some extent cos is like finding out the person whom u like...but I guess that it is for a short while! Thank u honey for loving me so much for these few years but I'm really need to let u kow that the passion is not as great as last time, pardon me if u feel that I get agitated becos of u...I need time to overcome myself...I just hate myself for not being myself. My love for u is still there but not as strong as urs...feels so so so bad that the love is unbalance....tt's all....to my friends out there, dun worry, i'm ok. from young, I always have been independent n hence has always been a loner. likewise for my bro: lunch and dinner if mum never cook is almost 90% having meals by ourselves without any friends to attend. It's not about asking people to join us but rather it's kinda of the sensing auora that I feel. As for CCAs in sec sch, jc and pri sch, we joined because we have the passion for it. We did not really think for the sake of friends. Whateve we do, we do it with the best of our heart

I dun think it's about greviances about life but just that when the shoulder becomes tense and moody, I just want to share it out as in a discrete manner becos I believed that what comes around goes around, so in the end, it is still comes back to u. N then my stupid character for being so not so spontaneous...sometimes I ask myself how come my gf can still like me for BEING AN OLD AND BORING BF....Love is just strange!

I'm tired already...for those who have read my blog, thank you for spending time to read thru. It is really my 1st time letting out such feelings to u all. Whatever I've said, I will be responsible for it! Gd night!

Clear sky with clear blue sky

2008-03-14T10:44:00.002+08:00

Haha...the title sounds lame but it is ok...I can be cheered up so easily....OMG! 思想单纯！FYP draft hand over alr n it really feels gd! Yup! Thank you everyone for the concern especially to Peishan, Shirin, Shun Zhang, Untung, Yali n Pei Qin...thanks!...tt's all for now...my mind is blank now....GANBATTE! Later will be seeing a dentist...omg....IT'S GONNA TO BE PAINFUL AGAIN!

CONFUSION

2008-03-11T11:13:00.002+08:00

I really dun know.... ....how? Just dun feel like going to sch!

MYSELF

2008-03-08T09:17:00.003+08:00

I dun know what to say just felt that I dun know what to talk about whenever I meet my friends be it in ODAC or in NTU. Yup, just dun what to say in conversation...I know this is a stumbling block...a block which is very hard to remove....carrying it with me? AM i too gd a soul kind? I'm not asking for repayment or whatever but just a little more comfort...I feel that I've a bit "ya ya pa pa ya"...Anyway, GANBATTE to the year 4 FOLKS! SZ: I UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL TOO! COS i'VE EXPRIENCED IT BEFORE COS IT'S LIKE ASKING MY BODY TO MOVE BUT IT DOES NOT WANT TO MOVE....Last time back in sec sch, I was so so so damn sad that I talked to myself n stare blankly into the ceiling and the next sec dun what am I saying n sob sob sob...so dun think so much...must FIGHT FOR THE BATTLE FOR YOURSELF! LIFE IS UNFAIR! TT'S ALL I C IN MY EYES!

Now I understand how come the world will continue to have conflicts because everyone is fighting for their own reasons and when reasons dun align, conflicts start. I'm not trying to saying that human is evil in nature but rather fighting spirit is in our soul but whether it is meant to be yielded as a "light magic" or "dark magic" . IT BOILS DOWN TO HUMAN CHOICE! U take two paths: EVIL or GOOD! Choice is up to u to decide. If u want evil, then be evil all the way! No turning back at all!

Post CNY

2008-02-17T10:39:00.002+08:00

The dinner/steamboat at Shun Zhang's house was definitely fabulous! Muhaha...it's really great! The laughter and sound...what can I say dude! Muhaha...Eugene made quite a lot of profit from By Luck Card Game. I bought two bottles of wine but then there was no cork screw at Shun Zhang's house...what a waste...those two bottles are lying under my bed...muhaha...just waiting for one day to open it! Too bad I dun have small refrigator in my room, if NOT, I WILL DRINK FOR MYSELF!!!

I will not be attend quite a few things like from Weisi: It's my heart that is continuously telling me that there are work to be done and if I go for the trip, I would just be an unhappy person and I think there's no point of bringing my moodiness into the trip, it will definitely be a TOTAL SPOILER! Weisi, really thank you for the invitation but I would have to reject your invitation. I'm sorry to those, you know who you are, should you all feel I'm like giving you all the feeling of "fly-aeroplane". I have been nightmares because of FYP...it's the unrest and unsettled mind that causes me to have less appeptite. Mood has always been fluctuating. I understand the feeling of how like ODAC seniors such as Kelvin Kuah, Kelvin Yeo, Siang Ping, Mark Tong, Ben Lee and Siew Sze felt. I'm undergoing through the same path as them...Hope you guys will enjoy the trip! Cheers!

I think's that all for today! Have a nice day ahead!

Chinese New Year

2008-02-09T21:49:00.000+08:00

Dun have really nothing to say for this CNY...Feel bad abt smashing my dad's van window. Totally careless and I screamed and banged the van on the spot. The feeling was so terrible...had no mood....

Job job job

2008-01-31T11:38:00.000+08:00

No companies want to employ me because of the fact that I still have 4 months of disruption. Because I wanted to start work as early as possible, I had no choice but to give up my trip with Ren Jian for the China trip. But feel terrible because by then I will be competing with those ABP students...sian...gd luck to me!

Have a nice day ahead!

Chinese New Year to Come

2008-01-29T16:46:00.000+08:00

What should I start: Thank you to quite a lot of people such as my mom, dad, bro, gf, SZ, Untung, PQ, Peishan, Yali and my sixth uncle for sharing the concern for me especially after the FAILURE of ST Aerospace interview. Just want to say: I'm ok. Seriously...I'm fine. It's just that I will take some time for it to settle down

Had a mini-dinner with Yali, SZ, Untung, PQ, Ruyan, RJ and Grace and the topic were so so so much...haha...some of them are really f***ing funny...it's like OMG! Seriously, my heart is a bit itchy to see how did she look like after SZ trying to intro a girl to me...My mind was thinking whao!!!Can have a new gf! Wee...wee...Muhaha...tt is a dream!

Anyway, my gf cried over the fact that she was arrogant abt her sales volume. She's the last in the commission list queue. She felt very bad and she cried when she took a cab and picked her...I forced her to cry until she will not cry anymore and instead of storing all her power and released @ one go. This seems to be more like my character... ... ...true enough...I will always like to store power but I know that I'M GOING TO DIE YOUNG!!!! Gd lah...like that would have to see the poor Mother Earth suffering.

Muhaha....Really looking forward to the steamboat cos got good food... ...speaking of gd food, my tummy RUMBLES!!!!! Went for a 10-lap swim. Next target is 15-lap swim. Muhaha..."Add OIL!" ^_^

Wish everyone a happy CNY!

Was not offered

2008-01-23T16:10:00.000+08:00

Guess need not explain to much from the heading... ...just want to vent out

2nd interview plus weekend

2008-01-21T09:56:00.000+08:00

2nd interview was slightly longer and after going through the interview, I dun think I would have the chance to work in becos they are going to employ 6 out of 8. The trip in different department was very very important cos it really draw out clearly what each department is doing. The second interview was slightly damping cos the the interviewer told me straight in the face that I will not get 2nd upper based on my result...Muhaha...just got to face it. Yup, I did my maths on the calculation on the new GPA system, my grades still can't qualify even though this coming semester I get 9As and a B for FYP. If there's a miracle that I'm asked to sign the perm contract, I make sure I will beat the interviewer that I went for. How to beat him? Muhaha...not quite sure...just find way...beating is not physically but finding ways to earn higher position than him. My interview started at 1000 hrs and I had to wait for 3 more interviewees and the last interviewee came out at 1200 hrs. We then immediately proceeded to the other 3 departments for site visit. So when we fully finished the visit, it was already 1600 hrs. So late and had no lunch. Was so damn hungry. Anyway, they will announce before Chinese New Year. I gave up hope already but I'm starting to look forward for the NTU Career Fair on the 30th and 31st Jan....PQ and SZ, do u want to come along?..... I must not dream that I can get 2nd upper. It's the second lower that I've to be contented...very very sianz....

After the interview, I had steamboat at PQ's hall. Argh! The smell of the "numb hotness" (direct translation) soup was so terrible. I felt like puking however, I got used to the smell. The food was was really really alot! Muhaha...can't finish them all. It was also to celebrate Ren Jian's birthday...Happy Birthday Ren Jian!

Celebrating for my mom's birthday over the weekend. The atmosphere wasn't there even though my mom tried her best to uplift the mood. The two reasons were: my dad doesn't want to eat so much as he was more interested to go and sing KBOX session which was organised by my mom's colleague. I was slightly angry but I had no choice. The second reason was that while everyone was eating my gf just kept on smsing...I think abt her performance in her work...together with the two reasons, that's why I was pissed off. Even when I write down, I'm still pissed.

Hope u guys are doing well be it in work or studies! All the best!

Interview

2008-01-11T15:41:00.000+08:00

Got the second interview for ST Aerospace...Looking forward to it!

Will be asking around who wants to go fish prawn with me and Weisi...I'll start off by asking Shun Zhang 1st. It will be during recess.

How to save a life

2008-01-09T14:54:00.000+08:00

The following are the lyrics for the song titled: "How to save a life"

It's a sad lyrics but then it makes it so hidden energy that it encourage one to face life's difficulties and loves.

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Chorus:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Chorus:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Chorus:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life

How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life

I listened it to a few hundred times nice song....

The last lap

2008-01-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

I was pretty moody on Friday and Saturday. The two days were terrible...the grilling of aerospace industry stuffs were ok becos I am supposed to know before coming into the industry...but it's the effect after the interview that really pokes me. I was starting to doubt my own capabilities and start to question whether I've studied so much in NTU was really applicable to my career if I'm selected for ST Aerospace. Because of the small doubt in myself, I just could not help myself to think about myself for the past 3 years. Unhappy moments came to surface as I drove back home. It was really a total reflection of myself. Things that has not been resolved and shelved aside has came up...just like a devil. I also do not know how to explain. Sometimes, I do get the feeling of being not myself as in someone is controlling my body and actions...a bit scary, right? I feel too...

On Saturday, I went to girlfriend's hs to clean and move her furniture as her sister is coming back from USA after working for about 1 and a half year. So when we cleaning, we came across her 1st album when she was young as in when she was at pri 1. She took some photographs of the lion dance when she was staying at Chinatown. It was quite interesting. I happen to look at one of the photos. The photo which she took when she was sec 1. Her pure smile and her smile back in those days back in sec sch. I was looking at it and I "kipnapped" the photo cos I really liked the photo. The face and the smile was something that attracted to me and that was the reason I really really like her and woo her. Not because she was not a very very beautiful and sexy girl but because of the smile in it! Ever since being her bf for so long, it was the smile....really the smile...like suddenly a light shone upon me in the darkness. I actually cried at night...just could not help crying but it was not like a down pour but just tears rolling down my eyes. I just could not help it and I was recalling all the thoughts where I totally HATE myself...就是无法拿起那把刀勇敢的往前冲！All the past events which screwed just could not let go from my heart! Am I prepared to move forward in life? Was I crying because there was really no reason to cry? All these thoughts surfaced and felt a little better after crying as I've not cried silently to myself for a very very long time but soon fell asleep which was gd cos I would not have the time and the energy to anyhow think hapzardly!

On Sunday, went for Yali's surprise birthday party, mood was better as most of the gang were there. Was really happy to see Mark and Eugene cos long time never see them alr. We went to this cafe whereby they sell very very nice chocolate and food. The bill was paid by Eugene. Really generous! Thanks Eugene! Hee...hee...Then after the celebration, Sophia suggested that she wanted to watch "American Gangster" but it was not readily available at GV cinemas. The Cathy and cinelesiure have the timings but was rather late and we booked the whole whole whole room to ourselves and watched "Pan's Labyrinth"....Muhaha...I do not know how to spell the last word....Somebody correct me, ok? The show? Hmm...gruesome and a bit disgusting and adventure was definitely there because I have not seen the movie before. My initial guessing was the the faun was a bad person but it turned out to be otherwise. So it was really a nice show. Watching with Chee Keong, Shun Zhang, Untung, PQ, Grace, Mark, Zhenhan, Sophia, Weisi and Ren Jian were so dramatic as they scream and shouted! Really did enjoy myself with those screamings they made especially Mark...As the four of us took the train back, I asked PQ whether she will cry after graduating this semester, she looked at me with a blur and shock face for a while...Her look gave me this: Friendship has to work hard for it! Earn it and respect it! Easy to destroy and difficult to build! So it was at that moment, I've decided to make sure that I get in contact with them and must plan outings with them after once, meeting for dinner will be quite BORING! Hee...heee....

我是真的这次能够拿起那把刀往前冲！终于了！

Tired alr....tt's y it is really the last lap to make myself more happening for this semester! Gd night!

New Year Resolution

2007-12-30T16:08:00.000+08:00

Year 2007 is coming to an end. One year older already! Last semester studying in school. And then graduate!

Just tell myself that for the last semester that I would really go out for my subjects and as well as for my FYP. Being realistic, I think for my FYP I think I can get "B". Yes, I'm a bit more greedier which is that I want to get an "A" for it which is highly unattainable unless you publish your FYP findings otherwise it will be difficult. Never try never know. With no more so called project-based core electives, I can concentrate on my design and technical electives. Go out for it dude!

I just saw an email from ST Aerospace and that they ask me down for an interview on 3 January which is Thursday. I'm quite well prepared for the interview and it will be muy first interview. Need to do a bit of my homework before going down for the interview. Also I will also need to let them know that I still have 6 more months for NS. Not quite sure whether they will still hire me or not. Nevertheless, will send an email to the HR and see the feedback response.

Muhaha...I'm totally a fan of TRANSFORMERS and I've watched the DVD which I bought 10 times. It's like OMG! Muhaha...Transformers was like a childhood cartoon and it was one of my favourite cartoons. Spider-man, Fanastic-Four and other cartoon made into movie did not attract me too much...but for TRANSFORMERS...it's way too cool! The DVD which I bought has two discs. One disc shows the movie and the other shows about the filiming progress. I get to know that designer who designed Optimus Prime was Keiji, one of the senior staffs at Industrial Light and Magic where they do all those 3-D animation effects so on and so forth...lots of stuffs. He was the one who commented the earlier sketches of 3-D Optimus Prime done by Michael Bay's team and said that the face they drew was an insult to the Japanese...guess that it must have been drawn badly. Michael Bay narrates the fact during the movie if you opt for special comments...yup, if I am right. It was kinda funny! TRANSFORMERS 2 is still in the making in the process but I heard that it will be out on the year 2009. Which month to be exact, I have no idea. Talking about the TRANSFORMERS: The Score. Singapore's music stores still does not have it and I'm really hoping to get the CD from the music store. I was so so so damn tempted to buy one from amazon.com but it needs shipping. I'm not quite sure whether TRANSFORMERS 2 will be nice or not! Well, we'll have to wait and see how....

My NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS:

Train my upper body cos I think the current state is sucky together with the belly!
Concentrate well on my remaining subjects
Wish well to all my friends out there! Best endeavours!
Wish my girlfriend all the best in her work!

Merry X'mas!

2007-12-25T19:17:00.000+08:00

Ho ho ho! Merry Christmas everyone! Last week and this week got the holiday mood as we celebrated Christmas. I went to attend one of the Christmas Party organised by my gf's customer at Goodwood Hill. I did not expect the party to be so glamorous. The host live in those like swiss cottage house and it has a huge function hall. Dinner was buffet and I must say that the dinner was really great! As expected, it was a Christmas Party that was orgainsed by the church cell (my gf's customer). They played some ice-breaker games. The old and the youg ones joined in and I think the MC did a great job! After the ice-breaker games, we proceed to have dinner. The dinner food was like OMG! It was damn nice and in my life, I've not had any slice of roast turkey for Christmas even though, had a taste of it in the form of ham. But real turkey meat, never before! Oh, the visitors were all properly dressed. I initially wanted to wear berms and polo T-shirt but I wore shirt plus jeans! Very happy thatI've made a smart move! Of course, they had a skit about the truth meaning of Christmas. It was damn funny! I could not believe that the old ones there were so entertaining and energetic! What a surprise! After the skit, they sang Christmas Carol which was expected! Even though I'm not a Christian, I enjoyed myself over there.

RUSHED to Kelvin's Kuah house to attend the 2nd party, it was really gd but no one BBQ anymore. They were all playing games. It was nice to catch up with the real seniors. The Christmas Exchange Gift Ceremony was the peak, that's in my opinion, the funniest part: Shun Zhang looking for the best present even though everyone of us was only allowed to have 5 seconds to pick any present from the lot! Really enjoyed over the past few days! Muhaha! Merry Christmas everyone!

After months and months

2007-12-18T12:51:00.000+08:00

It has been a while ever since I last posted my blog. Too busy...what a lame excuse I've giuven for myself. Hmm...the real reason: just can't be bothered to publish any post on the blog and need extra effort to make the blog look nice and interesting.

Today's post is that great at all, just some reflections as a year 4 student! I just feel that there is little motivation to study as this is the last year and I'm more kinda of making myself more spontanteous rather than 8 to 5 reading textbook or farming at library 2 to mug. But after the mid-term exam, I found that my studies have lagged. Most probably, I've been pre-occupied with HRM project - Blue Ocean Strategy! The difficulty of EE4265 - Process Control System was really a wake up CALL!!!! I just keep my fingers crossed with the hope that I will be able to pass that as well as HRM. I must say that my study habit for this year has really changed. I just can't memorise theories and models for Organisational Behaviour. Instead, I need to read it loud in a quiet corner and then need to constantly move around. As for FYP: Hmm...I think should be progressing well. My FYP-mate went for an odd job doing some fireworks for this Christmas! Whoa! That is really something: WONDERFUL!

I met up with Yali, Ren Jian, Shun Zhang and Untung to go for shopping. Untung came at a later time. Ren Jian and I initially had the energy to go for shopping but after that when we travelled from Marina Square to CentrePoint by train. Both of us could not stand anymore and we decided to go to Coffee Bean to chill out! Muhaha...both of us are so typical guys who can't stand long hrs of shopping. Oh! Was quite surprised that Yali spent so much money...didn't knew that she could spend quite much! I think so long as it was necessary, spending it's ok. One advice for Yali: DUN SPEND too MUCH! Money is really not easy to earn! (well, seems like naggy old grandfather! haha...will get slapped by her when she sees me on kk's hs gathering)

Untung joined us in the evening as his committee had an event at ECP. We had LJS at Orchard Cineleisure. After that, we decided to head down to Shun Zhang's hs to watch soccer. We took bus 174 from Orchard and when we board the bus, Untung's EZ-Link card did not have sucifficent funds to deduct and he borrowed some from Ren Jian. Ren Jian board the bus 1st and he paid for Untung's fare. Muhaha...Untung also paid too! It was damn funny as there was a miscommunication between both of them. That was incident number 1 for Untung. The second one when the bus approached coronation plaza near kk's hs. Untung stood up and I thought he was giving up his seat for the lady. He walked to the bus exit. Shun Zhang, Ren Jian and I were puzzled why was Untung standing at the bus exit as if we were dropping off. Muhaha...muhahaha...really could not stop laughing at that moment! He thought we were alighting at the next bus stop. Even at the point of blogging it, I still keep on smiling! It's like OMG!

Went to Stong with the 11th main comm...the trip was pounded with the rain! That was the bad part...Other than that: GREAT COMPANY!

Hmm...

2007-09-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

Disappointed as in my bro was not chosen to be FOOT logisitics. I wonder y......

1st HRM presentation

2007-09-07T19:14:00.000+08:00

Today was the 1st day that we really get ourselves to present our BOS project. Yesterday night had a self-rehearsal n my gf was my listener(thru mobile phone). When I was talking to her about my presentation, she did not get the full picture n I had to explain what's BOS strategy to her for quite a long time before she knew what BOS was all about. Haha...Initially she was sleepy but the moment she heard the wrong pronunciation "tier", she laughed out loud...then do I realise that I pronunced wrongly. ..Haha...What a fool of myself! After the self-rehearsal, I decided to go back to hall because it was already late at night as I was in the TUTORIAL room ALONE!!!!Freaky...man....just the de.....ad s........i....lenCE! Muhaha! Saw Untung when I went back hall with his bike. We had a small chit chat n found out that he cycled to Bukit Timah where was far from NTU...OMG...so Steady!? Heehee...

HRM Presentation: Was nervous because we knew that Patrick, our prof, would GRILL everyone of us. This "grilling" session was not too bad. True enough, HRM really sets me thinking and really puts me in an uncomfortable zone. This zone doesn't pertain to the profound knowledge but rather the frequent meetings and discussions really put me off. Nonetheless, it it sets me to think which is good for my brainny...Time management is really important especially in the fourth year with so many deadlines from FYP, HRM, Professional Communication. I think HRM is really giving me NO LIFE! N not FYP....WTH!!!! As for the presentation today, I want to congratulate everyone of us as we really put in the effort.It was slightly successful except for the doubt on whether ourBOS company was going to target the majority or the minority customers...

Back to this week, I saw Chye Kiat and he asked me where am I going? I replied him that I was going to Library 2 and he said, "eeeeeeee". From his sentence, it means no life....so sad right????

Oh I saw Shun Zhang's blog....Muhaha...have been reading his quite often to get updates on him. I can see that he's really trying his best to balance his studies, ODAC as well as his life. Admired his spirit because he can take on so much stuff being the last year in NTU....佩服！

Then as for my bro, he has changed relatively in terms of style such as buying adidas shoes, wearing adidas jacket n crumpler bag. I guess that he sees that he needs to improve his self-image. Maybe I can try to ask him whether he wants to dye his hair...Muhaha....

Really looking forward to the 11th main comm outing during the recess week because I have not get in touched with the gang!

picnic at esPlanAde

2007-09-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

Had a wonderful picnic at Esplanade with Chee Keong, Christin, Rosabel, Victoria, Jeck Meng, Elsie, Hanling, Jingfen, Jacob, Peiyu, Joanna, Xuying and Jeremy. Basically all the old birds...Chee Keong organised it. A picnic at Esplanade was something unusual because not all people will do it and alot of the passer-bys stared at us. But it was ok. The way we had the picnic is really like ODAC...Just remembered the good old days spent in outdoor cooking. We initially wanted it to have at Fort Canning Hill but the weather was partly at fault. Joanna was mentioning on the past days where Ren Jian asked his juniors during HCJC to sing a cheer when they climbed onto a lamp post(if I'm not wrong!)...We all burst out laughing...What a day!

Initially, I really did not have the intention to go down for the picnic because I was really too busy for the work load in school. I think this time round, I'm really too pre-occupied with the workload because I have three modules which require presentation and to do survey forms for my HRM project...HRM project...super super irritating...As for the rest of the 3 modules, I was having hard time too. I'm a person who gets agitated easily if I don't understand the theory or the course and my face will get black for the whole day!!! In the end, I still went down because I told myself that I really need to keep in touch with my friends if not, sooner or later, will be left behind.

As for 11th main comm gang, I truly felt that I have not been in touch with them for quite some time due to the hetic schedule. I really have no choice even for organising an outing which Yali suggested, I'm not able to keep up with it. Shun Zhang criticised me in a goodwill tone in the email, "He's so preoccupied with his mundane life!" Haha...Shun Zhang was the best shooting at me for the email he replied. Sorry Shun Zhang to count you on the organising the outing. Sorry guys...do pardon me for missing out the last few weeks. As for the next few weeks, I may be missing in action again. Just too busy. I will want to rest enough as I'm still sick with flu, cough.

I'll see a doc soon and I need his help...heehee...muhaha. Think everyone is really busy too so it's not me just alone hence...everybody jia you!

Take care everybody!

The 1st DaY

2007-08-28T12:18:00.001+08:00

Yesterday (27/8) was indeed a better day, in terms of morale, even though it was a one full day. As usual, I still do not understand the concept of reset windup in the design elective, EE4265. It's pretty frustrating if you do not know the concept. I'll make sure that I can get to understand the concept as soon as possible

I did feel guilty for something. This is how the story began: Mark called me in the afternoon and asked me whether I was interested to catch a movie. Initially, Zhenhan's idea was to watch in town because he was getting something in town. I did not want to go to town because it was really far away and the distance travelled will be long. So I just suggested if they do not mind watching movie at Jurong Point. They(Shun Zhang, Grace, Zhenhan and Pei Qin) were all fine with it. Then I smsed Mark that if they were watching "Dead Silence", then I would not be going and I really do not mind if they catch that show. The reason: I'm a timid mouse! My heart tends to beat very fast and I'll definitely start to shiver. Then my shivering is quite bad (My gf is the best witness because she always laugh at me when I shiver). In the end, we watched "Bourne Ultimatum". So when I meet the rest at Jurong Point's Crystal Jade Restaurant, Shun Zhang sms me: "We are celebrating Mark's Birthday!" Then I came to realise that they had the thought of watching a movie in the town because they wanted to celebrate. I felt bad cos it's like destroying Mark's birthday atmosphere. It's like OMG...What am I doing? Haha....

Saw Pei Qin and it seems like a long time never see her since AGM. Pei Qin and Shun Zhang were whispering about something while the 3 of us(me,PQ n SZ) were going back to hall. I didn't know the content as I was talking to my gf....Muhaha...What's so secretive, SZ and PQ????Muhaha...

To Mark: Happy Birthday!

My 1st Blog

2007-08-26T15:00:00.000+08:00

Hmm....It's my 1st time blogging. I've read a lot of my friend's blog and most of them are mostly sad news. Likewise, my 1st blog for the month is also not too good. 11th AGM was the most intense and heated AGM which I've ever attended when I was in year 1, year 2 and year 3. I just felt something wasn't right such as missing of the 10th AGM minutes in the presentation slides and the furore( a bit exaggerated) by the seniors with regards to the the introduction of 3 new positions in ODAC. All the events that happened at AGM gave me the realisation that after all, I'm someone who is incompetent as I did not read the constitution properly and as well as the preparation. Over the weekends, my morale was super low even though with the care and concern by my brother, Shun Zhang, Chee Keong and my girlfriend. Tomorrow begins a fresh day. I've already learnt my lesson and I will always take with it whenever I go into the workforce because in school we can afford to make mistakes and learn them. I agree with Shun Zhang that there is nothing wrong when someone who is at the bottom of the well. So long as he's able to stand up and learnt for the experience. It will definitely take time before I can recover from the "syndrome". To the 11th main committee, thank you for the hard work and the friendship. It had been ups and downs that we have been through. I've spent substantial time with ODAC in my university life. I do not have much friends in the academic studies unlike ODAC. Want to thank ODAC for the wonderous time I had when I was FOOT log, main comm log and as a president.

I also begin to feel the stress as the electives are so damn bloody hard to conceptualise. Hee...Hee...I will take sometime to do it. That's all!